This Party Is Getting Old

I am getting tired of being good. Tired of eating healthy. I’m tired of fighting these cravings. I want sugar! I want tasty, high calorie, fatty food! Uye, this is crazy. Don’t get me wrong, I’m seeing results. I have stuck to my diet, lost weight and have not cheated once.

I keep telling myself to hang in there. I am ten pounds away from my first goal. I have more to lose but I set a goal to be a certain weight by a certain day and it’s within reach. The problem is that it is taking to long and I am about out of patience.

Maybe, if I was not hungry all the time, I would not think of food so much. Maybe if I had long term vision I would be goal oriented more than focusing on the daily task of getting to that goal. At least, I am afraid to cheat for fear of the guilt I’ll have for blowing it and the overwhelming feeling of failure. So, I guess that can be seen as a positive.

I guess the old saying is correct, if you don’t have to work hard for something, it’s not worth having. That’s true. Problem is, I don’t keep it long once I obtain it.

Here’s to getting to my goal, keeping it, and staying the course!


2 thoughts on “This Party Is Getting Old”

  1. Are you sure you are eating enough? And if you are, are you getting adequate amounts of protein, carbs, and fat? Don’t deprive your body or mind. Treat yourself every now and then, I know moderation can be hard but it is worth a shot right?


    1. I know I am not eating enough calories each day. I am hooked on wanting to eat less calories. Physiologically, I think it makes me think my body will use it’s plentiful reserves. I just want to get down to a healthy weight and then focus on maintenance and a better balance. I know it is risky, but I am afraid that if I don’t lose weight quickly that I will get discouraged and quit. I guess that makes me weak but if I was strong I would not have gotten addicted to food and overweight.

      I am thinking that once I get down a couple more pounds that I will treat myself to a nice meal as a reward. I just hope I can keep it to just one meal. You are 100% correct, though, it is worth a shot and I am determined not to give up.


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